dinsdag, maart 17
23:21

THINGS I WANT MY DAD TO KNOW WHEN I HAVE DIED.

I felt alone as a kid. I never fit in.
I climbed in trees and almost fell.
Many times I did. I don’t like talking to strangers.
Sometimes I wanted to be a boy
So we could play and watch soccer together.
I filled notebooks with angry words to you
that I didn’t mean. I thought you killed our rabbit.
You didn’t. I hated the day I got breasts because
I thought you’d not like me anymore.
In puberty I thought of running away
at least twice a year. I never did.
I loved every man I ever kissed
but not as much as I love you.
No matter when and how you will receive this
there is your music playing right here.
I still lack confidence. I always will.
I chose to do something with my life
that I knew I could fail at. So you
could be proud of me when I succeed.
I spent my whole life walking in shadows
and his such colorful wings.

Copyright 2009.
Written by me.